There’s that dreaded six-letter word I always hated seeing
and thinking about, at any given point in my life, it was always there to greet
me. To remind me that everything around me is no longer the same as it once
was.
It was also there to remind me that perhaps not everyone I
started this journey with would be there to watch me make it to the end. As
much as I hate change, I realise that it’s an important part of life, as things
change around us, we too change in order to keep going in this life we live.
Change always terrified me, in the sense that if everything
around me changed, I wouldn’t have anything comfortable to go back to, and I’d
feel lost. It had always been such an integral part of the last three years of
my life while studying, and everything around me changed so often, I was forced
to be open to the idea – no matter how much I protested it internally, I had no
choice.
With change, comes a lot of mixed emotions and feelings.
Some make you feel like you’re on top of the world, like nothing can get to
you. Others, however, make you feel like you’re just holding on for dear life.
For months, I’ve been staring at a blank document, trying to
think of the right words to put down in the hopes that someday, it’ll provide
some sort of explanation as to my sudden hiatus from blogging. Truth be told,
I’ve written various paragraphs, and sometimes, I’m tempted to post them – in
order to remind this blog that I haven’t forgotten about it. I haven’t
abandoned it for something better or more fulfilling.
Rather, I’ve been stuck.
Stuck in places that didn’t suit me, with people who
probably didn’t care about me as I did them. People who would rather gang up on
someone, than tell them exactly how they feel. Stuck with feelings I didn’t
want or need, or even understand. And stuck with the same song going round and
round in my head in the hopes that someday, it’ll fit into some part of my
life.
However, I’m beyond happy to say that with the help of my
family, friends, and my loving partner – I’ve found the strength to overcome my
obstacles and have learnt to embrace change as it comes. Some days, it’s hard
to find that motivation to keep going, but it comes in many forms – you’ve just
got to be open to it.
I’m proud to say that I’ve finished my degree in
Communications with PR and Advertising, and I’m currently working two jobs
while pursuing a Graduate Diploma in Event Management. I’m just seeing where
this year takes me and trying to be open to any opportunities that come
knocking, while also being proactive and getting myself out there and noticed
by industry workers.
Moving forward, I plan to write more and give this blog the love and attention it needs while seeing what this year has for me. Stay tuned as I try
to do this life thing as best I can.
Until next time,
Tessa.
Tessa.
